i use to sit and wonder now i sit and laugh i feel lik ive done it all buh der is still much to comlete its hard to say how scary things have become.. how nervous and anxious i actully get. i used to sit and wonder and stay calm and keep things cool and locked inside.. it was workin fo a while den a bomb was droped and i fell to the ground i became insane.. now i laugh, i feel lik ive done it all.. its broken, im broken. there is no more of what it used to be, it came undone and raped around mii neck. i had to let it out. im becomeing stronger and thinkin deeper. i think too much. letting it all go? no more of that it all floods into mii vains and seeps out of mii tears and salivia as i speak. i use to sit and wonder now i sit and laugh..